college.

college.

College is perhaps the most intimidating thing in my life right now. I’m only seventeen and a junior in high school, and yet nothing is more nerve racking to me than college. I’ve never been very smart or good at school, who knows what my grades will be? No matter how hard I try, I can’t get even get Algebra through my head, what happens when I get to Calculus?

Thousands and thousands of dollars of student loan debt, skull cracking pressure from my parents to get all A’s and B’s, all for classes that don’t apply to my future, at least that’s the way it seems. I want to write novels and tell stories, but instead I’m getting an accounting degree. Why? What’s the reason? For a plan B? Ultimately I’m going to college just to make my parents happy and proud. I know they just want what’s best for me, but is it actually what’s best for me? I’ll have to go and find out even if I don’t want to.

Anxiety inducing. That’s what college is. All of these fears bounce around in my head every day as school approaches rapidly. I know I’m not the only one with these thoughts. I guess I’ll have to just keep truckin’ forwards and hope my parents are right that university isn’t gonna drown me.

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